Jealousy

Ok so I have to wonder where envy and jealousy come from.  I understand that it is a state of mind, but I guess I wonder because I have never really been one to feel it much.  In my entire almost 40 years alive I can recall maybe 5/6 incidents, my heart is numb and confused on the feeling I suppose.

Jealousy can be for many reasons and make people act, feel, and say silly things.  But when it becomes a problem when people are invading you privacy what do you do then?

Those who know me well know why I ponder on this.  Stupidity in my eyes can come hand and hand with the green lil monster.  I think when people they should ask themselves-why do I feel this way? why are the people that are making me feel this way doing the things they do? what have I done to make it all happen? why am I so angry? what are my valid points?

If anybody has some insight on this please help me understand.

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Stop Hate

To start off I have decided to write this because the other day my daughter said she hated someone.  I was appalled to hear this!  I have tried to teach my children never to use that word hate, as it is a heinous word and a very strong word.

In understanding the definition it has the word dislike in it and can seem a bit unharmful.  But intense is the word to focus on.  Hatred is not something a person is born with, it is something that is learned.  Again see my reason to be appalled by my child, we do NOT use that word for expression in my household.  I do not teach my kids to hate anyone or anything.

I believe most people do not see the harm a simple word can do.  I also believe even the oldest of old could never comprehend the meaning of hate.  I have been through many bad points in my life, but through thee worst I still can never get myself to say I hate the people that did the things they did to me.

Hate is a word that get thrown around very nonchalant which makes this world a bit screwed up in my opinion.

I have seen the biggest and strongest people fall with just a simple word.  It can burn into a person like a fiery pick.  And yet again it all goes back to my fight against verbal abuse.

Keep the hate down and fight to show the way of a child and our owners of our future to not spread the disease of such a pitiful and useless word or feeling.

DAY 7: STOP verbal/emotional abuse

So today sadly is day 7 of my fight and awareness on verbal/emotional abuse, though my blog might not have much on it from here on out on it, but my fight against abuse still will be strong. I will continue to fight and be vocal about it!

So keep any eye out.  I am trying to build an awareness campaign so I will keep it all posted her also. So lets get started with today.

1.   Criticizing them.
2. Giving them the silent treatment.
3. Disrespect
4. Failing to give them real explanations. Giving non-explanations such as “because it is wrong” or “because it is inappropriate” or “because it is a sin”

I am not putting examples today as I hope all that have followed get the understanding and how harsh verbal/emotional abuse can be and it must be stopped and people made aware of.

DAY 6: STOP verbal/emotional abuse

Sorry so late my computer was updating so it was out of commission for a day.  But her is day 6 on the fight against verbal/emotional abuse.  I’m going to make this one a bit short as I have to get kiddos to bed and myself for an early day tomorrow.

1. Judging or rejecting their friends—labeling them and you
2. Using punishments and rewards to manipulate and control them.
3. Invading their privacy.
4. Under-estimating them.

Examples:  Mother commented on social media on a picture of son’s girlfriend and called her a lipstick whore.

Mother comments to other sibling that older sibling hangs around druggies, and she has never met them.

Mother is being ignored by step-daughter after making snide comments and mother then calls daughter and tells her she will fix her motorcycle or four-wheeler just for her and take her places till the daughter agrees and never follows through.

Mother bribes son by telling him she will give him money every paycheck after he has refused to talk to her since she told him he was a disappointment to get him to talk to her.

Mother reads daughters text messages, goes through phone calls, goes through tablets and interrogates because she doesn’t trust the child and what the child does.

This is not the way a child or any person should be treated.  And I say again and again, help fight against verbal/emotional abuse.  NOBODY deserves to be the doormat.

DAY 5: Stop verbal/emotional abuse

Sorry that day 5 came so late, this weekend was a doozy with camping in back yard with kids and their friends…was a good time with dancing and karaoke all night long then family birthday parties…whoa!! long weekend!.

So here is day 5 in my fight against verbal/emotional abuse.

1. Invalidating their feelings.
2. Laying undeserved guilt on them.
3. Dominating the conversations.
4. Refusing to apologize.
5. Always needing to have the last word.

Examples:  My step-daughter was in tears one night when her mother called on her cell phone and didn’t even take a moment to speak to her, instead asked for my step-son.  When my step-son pushed the phone upon her and her mother asked why she was crying she said “well because you haven’t even talked to me or tried in a while and you called my phone and didn’t even take time for me.”  Mother responded with “Well it is you Alyssa.  It’s not me, you are the one that seems to be busy with sports and your other family you don’t want to take time for me, so why should I take the time if you can’t!”  Step-daughter apologized for being busy.  I know this one seems harmless, but as a parent it is no the child’s place to put the effort first.  Instead of apologizing for making her feel the way she did she put the blame on my step-daughter.

Dominating several conversation and having last word happens all the time with my step-kids.  Mother gets mad and she continues to text and text and text.  She even does this to my other half.  If she doesn’t like the answer or things don’t go her way she tends to continue for an hour or two with ugly comments to him such as, “your such a bad dad” “Oh great parenting” “your wife trying to be a good mother again when you know she can’t, I’m their only mom.” then it continues for hours, sad thing is that our 8 year old sees the messages because that’s the phone she calls him on and it saddens him and angers him.

If you read day 4 blog you will see the person never apologizes and that’s just one of many times.

So till tomorrow keep up the fight against verbal/emotional abuse.

Day 4: STOP verbal/emotional abuse

Let’s start by saying today is a better day. 🙂 But the struggle is still very real and the fight is still on.

1. Terrorism: to threaten a child or someone who is dear to him with physical violence, abandonment or death, to threaten to destroy the child’s possessions, to place him in chaotic or dangerous situations, to define strict and unreasonable expectations and to threaten him with punishment if he does not comply. Threatening to harm you, your pet or people you care about. Threatening to have children taken away.
2. Exposure to domestic violence: to expose a child to violent words and acts between his parents.
3. Making the child/teen feel responsible for the mother’s feelings.
4. Threatening them with vague, unstated consequences.

Examples:  This one was used once already but I will use again because it was definitely one that our kid remember after their mom tried to keep them out of state, as my other half drove up to where they were with a Sherriff, their mother was angry and while loading the kids baggage in vehicle she remarked “I’m going to shoot your dad.  He will get what he deserves”

About the new wife “Why don’t you tell your wife to come up her to my house I have something for her..hahahahaha!”

At a soccer game while carrying her then 6 year old son the mother began trying to push the step-mother while cursing at her, as dad says “Are you really going to do this in front of your kids?” she responds “I sure am I can you what the F**k I want” wife and dad ask her go away and move away themselves.  A few minutes later she yanks the daughter by arm and tells step-mom “These are my kids stop trying to act like they are yours you poor excuse for a mom.” Then goes behind dad and pushes him. Children embarrassed in public and in front of family–this would be a part of #2

I’m baffled how things like this can continue to happen with no consequences.  Please help educate and pass on the word.  Verbal/emotional abuse is still abuse!!!

Day 3: STOP verbal/emotional abuse

Ok so day is day 3 on the fight against verbal/emotional abuse.

Today I am a bit sad for my older step-son, he broke my heart.  Even though he didn’t say much about the situation his facial expression and silence made a huge impact on my heart.

Example:  So today my example is paraphrasing from a conversation between him and his biological mother; due to his silence.

A few weeks back she told him he was a disappointment and elaborated on it, so today after him no speaking to her he showed me text conversation between them.  He reiterated to her how she told him he was a disappointment and she never once apologized or took back.  All she did was tell him in a nut shell that what she tells him is true and if the truth hurts he needs to change his ways and suck it up.  She also told him she tells him things because of things she hears about him and that it must be truth if others are speaking of it.

Now let me tell you a bit of my step-son:  he is an amazingly smart kid on his way to a big university in which he earned on his own and graduated as high school senior with honors.  He works two jobs, plays soccer for pleasure, and is going and has played soccer for school (he is great at it).  He also is an average teenager that likes to have fun but never gets in trouble as he know what he wants his life to be like.

So tell me does that seem like a disappointment to you?

1. Yelling and screaming at you.
2. Intentionally embarrassing you in public.
3. Using online communities or cell phones to control, intimidate or humiliate you.
4. Blaming your actions for their unhealthy behavior. Placing undeserved blame on them.

Again I ask, please help with my fight against verbal/emotional abuse!!! Pass it on, nobody should be put down and kicked.